Sunday, September 15, 2013

What I've Learned

For those of you that are unaware- when I was in high school I wrote a sort of poem about truths that I had learned in my life. It sort of took off and now every year on my birthday I add another truth about something that life taught me that year. And seeing as yesterday was my 27th birthday, it is time to add another truth! Enjoy the full list :)

What I’ve Learned
27 Truths for Living Life
1. When you’re learning how to walk, the standing back up part is important.
2. The most important word is not I or mine.
3. Potty training is hard
4. Always, always ask why
5. Don’t pick California poppies in California
6. Daisies are always free
7. When faced with the choice of getting to keep a toy that you want, and getting to say good bye to a friend you may never see again, always give up the Barbie for the chance to say good-bye.
8. Have faith.
9. Always have an imagination and always use it.
10. Barney is not as cool as you once thought.
11. Write-always write.
12. Work hard for yourself- not for your teachers or for your parents- but just for you.
13. Love your family.  Someday they will be all that you have left.
14. Learn who you are, love who you are, be who you are.
15. Fall in love.
16. Dance the way you do when no one is watching.
17. People don’t die. They take a long vacation and go visit God.   
18. You don’t know everything. In fact, you don’t know much at all. What you do know though, is that the only way to live is with God and His son, because it is then that you find joy. 
19. Someday someone will make you realize that you can hold the world.  And even if he ends up hurting you, you’ll know that every tear will be worth it because your love was real.  Because it was when you loved him that you found yourself closest to God. 
20. Learn how to live by yourself and love being alone. It will be very lonesome for quite some time but when it gets really bad, the Lord will send you a friend who will make the loneliness more tolerable.
21. Sometimes you loose sight of who you are. When this happens the best remedy is to just take off you clothes and jump into the water.
22. Love is not hard. Situations may be hard. Creating romance may be hard. But love itself, is very easy.
23. Do not let anyone or anything tell you to hurry. This is YOUR time. You need to live life, not be life.
24. Patience is a virtue that if you don't garner naturally, it will be forced upon you.
25. You MUST trust yourself- you know who you are. Now have FAITH in that person.
26. Be flexible. As much as you would like to think you are in control you are not- the Lord is. But have no fear- he is a much better manager than you are. And don't forget to write.
27. Ask Heavenly Father for a task

Last year on my birthday I was just starting to heal emotionally from my miscarriage and the troubles we had getting pregnant after that. During the October General Conference (a weekend long church meeting where the leaders of our church talk and give advice to the members of my church) Elder Eyring was speaking and telling a story of his daughter in law who had been having similar problems with seeming infertility and miscarriages. And he shared a moment she had where she got on her knees and said, "Heavenly Father, I can understand that it might not be the time for more children. But if not then I need you to give me a task."

I am not sure if I have EVER had advice hit me more poignantly than that did. I was floundering at the time and looking for something to tie my down since every expected life plan I had for myself seemed to have no longer been an option. I can remember getting on my knees, in tears, and asking for the same thing Elder Eyrings daughter in law did. What was amazing is that I felt wonderfully in control after that and was amazed to discover that at the end of November- so two months later- I was pregnant with my daughter.

I am not saying that asking for a task will actually give you the original one you wanted- I did NOT expect that positive pregnancy test and had satisfied myself with other worthwhile endeavors. I think for me what I needed to do was learn to turn my life over to the Lord right then- because for the rest of this year I have found myself on my knees multiple times asking Heavenly Father for help to know what paths to take, and how to get through the ones I was already on. It has been amazing since I have had Monica and I find I myself doubly busy except instead of asking Him for something to do, I ask Him to help me organize what I already have to do.

So my truth for living life this year is to ask Heavenly Father for tasks. You will NEVER be disappointed, and you will NEVER fail at a task that He assigns you, and that you are sincerely willing to do.

Happy 27th to me! :)