Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Seriousness Day 2 :)

Before I report... any of you savvy blogger people... I have a lot of friends say that they are having a hard time commenting on my blog... apparently it tells them they don't have the rights? I haven't done anything that I know of to keep people from commenting... any idea what i do?

Okay- so now to update you from yesterday :)

I did great! I tell you, 9:30 at night, I had to fully immerse myself in my book club book to keep myself from digging into some chocolate chip cookies. But guess what? It worked! I actually think knowing I had to get on here and admit to you that I had done bad and eaten cookies all night really helped me keep from going for them. Maybe this is a really good thing :)

Best part of it all, is that I was feeling so determined, and Logan was such an angel that I was productive everywhere else as well! Meaning the dishes are done, the laundry is put away, and I even managed to clean my bathroom! (In case you think I am awesome the bedrooms didn't get cleaned but... if they had what would I do today? :) And I managed to take a bubble bath in the evening and fully enjoy myself. Awesomeness.

Today? So far? Doing great. I was a little sore in the thighs from yesterday so I decided to do interval training for an hour or so, during which I usually concentrate on upper body and torso. After a good 10 min cardio workout, I just set my timer to go off every three minutes and I do things like basic weights (bicep curls etc) and crunches, shadow boxing, kicks, jumping jacks, ballet squats etc. And then I stretch for ten minutes at the end. Its a good thing to do when Logan is awake because I don't have to watch a video so I can put on Super Y and Dinosaur Train (his favorites) and he gets enough attention from them (and his toy keys) that he wont scream for an hour.

I realized my problem with working out when Logan is awake is not that I mind when he cries, but I worry for my neighbors. I know how annoyed Adam and I would be if we were trying to relax, study, or sleep in and there was a baby crying all the time. I think I need to get to know my neighbors better and find out when they are home. Because if they are all out at 9 in the morning, you better believe I don't mind letting my son cry. As long as I know he is fed and clean and safe... he can do without my attention for an hour even if he doesn't want to. (Although I guess it should make me feel good that he DOES want me, because by the end of the day I tell you he is TIRED of my face.)

I ate a banana before I worked out, then had a bowl of cereal (plain cheerios- its weird but I HEART them). When I was driving Adam to and from school I was listening to my podcast Fat to Fit Radio, and they were doing a GREAT show on protein and when it is better to work out. (Morning, Night, before or after you eat.) What I love about these guys is that they have struggled with weight loss themselves so they are not only speaking from personal experience, but they use research and real medical findings to back them up. And one of them is a phys ed teacher, and they both have families so its a real down to earth, but very true, no gimmicky weight loss that they are talking about.

And they said today the very obvious fact that I think we (meaning I) forget a lot, and its that, in the end it doesn't matter when you get that exercise in, as long as you are DOING it. When you look at the facts, there are pluses and minuses for morning and night workouts- its what works for you that matters. What was interesting to me was when they talked about eating.

I had always heard, work out in the am right before you eat because then there is nothing in your system and you will burn more fat. The guess (Russ and Jeff are the names of the hosts of the podcast) agree that scientifically that this is true. Now, they also say in long term weight loss- its not going to make that big of a difference but you CAN burn more fat this way.

BUT- they pointed out that if you eat before (obviously not talking about a full Sunshine Platter here) that the food will fuel you, give you more energy, and you will get a better, and longer workout because of it. (Meaning longer lasting burn when you are done as well.) If you are doping strictly cardio this may not matter, but for weights DEFF eat something small because it is those last difficult reps that matter the most and will make the biggest difference and if you don't eat, you most likely will not have the energy to get done what you need too.

What they suggest, it eat something small. You don't want to get a stomach ache. And to eat something with sugar/ carbs. NOT a candy bar. They suggest a banana (which is why I had one today haha!) or an orange. These two fruits are healthy, and also have a lot of GOOD sugar, GOOD carbs, and some protein to help you get through that last push.

What I have also heard is that when you are done working out, that you need a protein shake to restore all that you lost and build those muscles back up. (I hate protein shakes.) Russ and Jeff say that yes, if you are body building this might be a good idea. Or if you never ever get any protein whatsoever in your diet during the rest of the day. But, if you are like me and are just looking to firm up what you have or build a little muscle- you know- normal amount not the hulk amount, MOST people who are eating a healthy diet, get plenty of protein in their diet during the day to build what you need. And it doesn't matter if you get that protein a few hours later with your lunch, or the moment after you work out.

So if you like protein shakes and want to allot points/ calories to drinking them, go ahead. But they are not necessary. (Yay for me!)

Anyways- just thought it was a cool fact. If you are looking into weight loss or just living healthy, I would DEFF suggest this podcast. I am still just listening to the second season but it is SO good! So motivating and so interesting as well. I put it on in the car or while I am cleaning. (I swear I am not getting paid to advertise for them- I just really like them :)

For the rest of my plans for today... if Logan takes a good morning nap (which seeing as he is asleep now is a good omen for that) I am going to get dressed and clean my room. (Wow... am I 16 or what haha!) We have to go to the store from some odds and ends and then I am going to have lettuce wraps for lunch (basically a sub but using nice cool crisp lettuce instead of bread. Its really nice to eat on a hot day out on my porch) and then we will probably distract Adam when he gets home until dinner time :) Which we will have leftover sausage pasta. Its a weight watchers recipe but it is SOO good, so I MAY get in trouble for it... but I am going to post the recipe here. (There are two different versions and they are both EXCELLENT- and about the same calorie wise so just see what fits your tastes better.)

Wish me luck until tomorrow!

Italian Sausage and Pepper Pasta
Weight Watchers Recipe
Image of fusilli with sausage and peppers


1/2 pound(s) raw turkey sausage, Italian-style, casings removed
2 tsp olive oil, extra-virgin
2 medium yellow pepper(s), cut into 2-inch long thin strips
1 medium onion(s), thinly sliced
1/2 cup(s) red wine (You can use chicken broth instead)
1 1/2 Tbsp minced garlic
28 oz canned crushed tomatoes, fire-roasted recommended
1/2 tsp crushed red pepper flakes, or less to taste
1/4 tsp table salt
8 oz uncooked whole-wheat pasta, fusilli
1/3 cup(s) basil, fresh, chopped


  • Bring a large pot of lightly salted water to a boil.

  • Meanwhile, to make sauce, in a large nonstick skillet over medium-high heat, cook sausage, stirring and breaking up meat with back of a wooden spoon, until cooked through, about 3 to 5 minutes; remove to a plate.

  • Heat oil in same skillet. Add yellow peppers and onion; cook, stirring frequently, until vegetables are lightly colored and crisp-tender, about 5 minutes.

  • Add wine and garlic; cook until most of liquid evaporates, about 1 minute. Add tomatoes, crushed red pepper, salt and browned sausage; bring to a boil. Reduce heat to medium-low, cover and simmer until vegetables are tender and sauce is heated through, about 10 minutes.

  • While sauce simmers, add pasta to boiling water and cook according to package instructions. Drain pasta; return to pot. Add sauce and basil; toss to mix and coat. Yields about 1 1/3 cups per serving.


  • The sauce is also good spooned over rice.

    Toss in some fennel seeds for even greater flavor.

Penne with Peppers and Sausage
Weight Watchers Recipe
Image of pasta with sausage and peppers

343 people rated this recipe
Course: main meals
PointsPlus® Value: 7
Servings: 6
Preparation Time: 15 min
Cooking Time: 20 min
Level of Difficulty: Easy
This recipe is full of tasty stuff: spicy sausage, sauteed vegetables and Parmesan cheese. Use the sausage mixture as a sandwich, omelet or baked potato filling.


1 spray(s) cooking spray

2 medium green pepper(s), cut into thin strips

1 clove(s) (medium) garlic clove(s), minced

1 medium onion(s), thinly sliced

1 cup(s) mushroom(s), sliced

1 pound(s) raw turkey sausage, spicy-Italian flavor

1/8 tsp dried oregano, crushed

1/4 tsp table salt

1/8 tsp black pepper, freshly ground

1/4 tsp crushed red pepper flakes

14 1/2 oz canned diced tomatoes

3 cup(s) cooked whole wheat pasta, penne, kept hot

6 Tbsp grated Parmesan cheese


  • Coat a large nonstick skillet with cooking spray and set pan over medium-high heat. Add green pepper, garlic, onion and mushrooms; cook, stirring frequently, until almost tender, about 7 to 8 minutes.

  • Remove turkey from casings; add turkey to skillet and brown until no longer pink, stirring occasionally, breaking it up with a wooden spoon as it cooks, about 6 minutes. Add oregano, salt, black pepper and red pepper flakes; stir in tomatoes. Simmer until heated through and to allow flavors to blend, about 5 minutes.

  • Spoon penne into a deep serving bowl; top with sausage mixture and sprinkle with cheese. Yields about 1 1/2 cups per serving.


  • During busy weeknights, streamline the preparation using frozen bell pepper strips or frozen diced bell pepper strips and onions.

    Use a high quality Parmesan cheese for maximum flavor. Just a small amount can completely transform your favorite Italian recipes.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Time to Get Serious Here....

I actually tried to loose weight last week. Really. So when I stepped on this scale this morning and realized I weighed THE EXACT SAME I was SUPER bummed. Luckily, my sadness instead of sending me to a pint of ice cream, buckled Logan into his stroller and sent us to the track for 3 miles and 45 minutes. (The pictures are from my run... Logan at the start and finish :)

On the drive home I was listening to my new favorite podcast Fat to Fit Radio, and would you know but that the episode that was on was all about goal setting. It was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. As I listened to it and got home and put Logan down for a nap I decided to reevaluate my weight loss, and my goals.

This reevaluation was done on three main principles that the podcast suggested: 1. make realistic goals. (Meaning that the goal I had to get the prebaby body back is stupid because lets face it- my butt is just bigger now. But that doesn't mean it has to be a flabby butt.) 2. each goal needs a what, when, and how. And the more hows you have the more likely you are to succeed. 3. long term goals are good, but short term goals will make you feel more successful in the long run. So set lots of those.

I am saying all of this here because I am going to try an experiment. To help me be more accountable- which I think I have been lacking- every day this week I am going to report here and blog on how I am doing. If this really proves to help than I might make a new blog and make it a long term thing. But for this week- every day- expect a blog about weight loss and we will see what happens next Monday.

Get to 140 lbs. AKA: Loose one pound a week for 13 weeks.
When? By November 28. This gives me 13 weeks to loose 11 pounds. I set this goal this way because 1-2 lbs a week is safe, and now that I have only 11 pounds to go, its going to get harder and harder to loose each pound. And I don't need the disappointment of a failed goal if I only loose one and I wanted to loose two. So the goal is one a week. And, I gave myself two extra weeks that way the week of my birthday and the week of Thanksgiving I don't have to loose just maintain :)
How am I going to do this?
By staying right on my points average.
-eating healthy/ less junk/ more filling
By working out 5 days a week
For this week that's what I want to concentrate on. Eating right and working out- the basics. When I feel I have those down again I can get more in depth.

GOAL NUMBER 2 (It really ties into the first one but...)
Eating right/ staying within points
When? Um... this week... and hopefully always :)
Planning meals. I used to be so good at this when Adam and I were in Utah and I got away from it in Tennessee. It really helps keep down costs too, and I never end up scouring the cupboards for food. So plan ahead.
Not skipping meals.
I have noticed that I am most vulnerable on Sundays when its harder to get all my meals in. In the evening I just end up gorging on cookies. So if I know I'm going to be out, I need to plan healthy snacks to take with me that way I always feel full. Its funny that actually eating- can help you drop pounds.
Not denying myself. I will have dessert. If I don't give myself something sweet than sometime later int he week I am dying of craving and I eat two dozen cookies instead of two. So- I would rather plan for my two cookies and just be happy.

The older Logan gets the harder this gets because he really wants attention. And usually if I don't workout first thing it doesn't get done.
So my when is going to be an experiment for this week. I know that putting working out off to Logan's first nap doesn't work. However, running with him today right after we dropped Adam off worked great.
So my hows really go with my whens:
see if the rec center has babysitting
see if I can handle letting him scream through a workout if I have too (I used to because he would be upstairs and I couldn't hear him if he got bored)
find other ways besides running that I can include Logan in my workout
if all else fails- go to bed earlier, and get up an hour before Logan does. AKA: workout from 6-7 am

Be more positive
When: constantly
I think since I have already been 140, I have been going about this weight loss differently than before. Before it was about being healthy. Now its about getting thin, and I hate that. I am going to change that.
Instead of looking at my loss- look at, oh I am running farther! Oh my pants fit better! Wow I have more energy! The numbers on the scale should be the last thing I am focused on. (They still NEED focus- it should just be the least of)
Instead of thinking on hitting a goal weight, think on living the life that I want myself and my family to lead for forever.
As cliche as it may sound- stop looking at my belly roll and cringing- and instead look at my awesome thighs. Ignore my baby belly and instead, have a good shave and walk around my house in little shorts during the day to make myself feel great. (Its my house I can do that if I want.)
Wear what makes me feel good.
You will laugh at this- but I have been making an effort to wear lingerie. Don't worry- I wont give TMI. However- lingerie for me does what it should- I feel sexy in it. And when I wear it I want to do my hair, put on make-up etc. I never felt sexy when I was preggo and just got into the habit of not during those 9 months. Well guess what? When I weighed 151 in 2009 I felt pretty dang hot so there is no reason why I shouldn't feel that way now. So even though I can't go to the grocery store in it- it is my right to prance around my home in something skimpy because it makes me feel good to pass by a mirror and go, "Yeah that's right- I'm fine."

So those are my goals. My long term goal, and the goals I want to focus on this week. And I am going to be here every day being accountable to you.

And since I don't want to write two posts today, even though its going to make this post super mega long, I am going to go ahead and be accountable now. :)

I weighed in at 151. And every time I have thought "sad day" this morning I have kicked myself and remembered what a success it was for me in the past to get to this point and how it should still be now! Heck, five months ago I walked into the hospital at 250 pounds.

I went jogging/ walking for 45 minutes. Made a total round of 3 miles. Adam got me an amazing app called Run Keeper, that uses the GPS in my phone to keep track of how far I am going, what my pace is, how much time I am spending, how many calories I am expending- I can customize it too and it will shout out things like speed up! if I want it too. I didn't do that today because this was the first really good run I have had since having Logan and I wanted to see where I was.

Pre baby I could run a 5k in 30 min. So 9 and a half min miles. I was actually happy to see I was running pretty close to 10 minute miles today, it was just that after 15 minutes I HAD to stop and walk. I really hope that now that I have found a safe, and very pretty place to run I will run at least once a week. I want to get back to where I was which really, just means building up my endurance.

And, thinking about it now, my time is even better than it seemed because in the past I didn't push 30 extra pounds while running. And I had to stop twice so little old ladies could admire my darling son. (This is no wise bothered me by the way. It makes me feel awesome to think that I made something so darn cute as Logan.) So in reality if I get to the point I can run a 5k in 30 min again, then I will be in way better shape than I was before. Nice thought.

Came home, put Logan to sleep, stretched, and am not eating yogurt, kashi granola, and a banana. Yum and healthy and filling. (Fiber One KeyLime Yogurt- I am telling you it is TO DIE FOR.) My plan for dinner is whole wheat spaghetti, with fresh made french bread I picked up at the flea market in Pittsburgh on Saturday. Dessert- the rest of Weight Watchers Peach Oat Crumble and Fat Free Vanilla Ice cream.

And I will plan my lunch and the rest of this week out after I finish this post. And go to the bathroom.

And I plan on wearing my little running shorts while I clean this morning to keep from getting my nice clothes yucky and to make myself feel good as I scrub floors. (Ps, since I am talking about lifting moods- writing this post has done WONDERS!)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Is it already the end of August?

At the risk of sounding cliche... time goes by so fast!! Here is what we have been up too since my last update...

We bought a car! Our little Acura Leon wasn't worth the price of his repairs, so Adam's saintly friend John took us to the Hyundai dealership to see what kind of deal we could get. Turns out we could get the best financing possible and a 400 dollar trade in for Leon. So we are introducing...
Heather the Hyundai Elantra. :) WE LOVE HER. We love her four doors, her bluetooth capabilities, her automatic engine, the fact that she gets around 40mi/gal on the freeway, the fact that she is brand spankin new! Though Leon was a great car... to be honest... we don't miss him a bit.

Adam has his first test next week. All the tests run on a three week schedule. The week of the test they get Thursday off to study, take the test on Friday, then get the following Monday off to recuperate :) Adam had been a studying machine but at least he really likes it. He was teaching me all about blood clotting factors last night, and tested me this morning on how much I remembered. :) (I woke up too- "so what is the 13th clotting factor?" I had no idea.) He is a little nervous for the test but that is to be expected.

The great thing about this scheduling is, is that the Saturday before (so yesterday) the boys really need as much study time as they can get so all of us girls have decided that all the Saturdays before the test we will get together and go and explore Pittsburgh for the day :) Its about an hour and half from where we are and really, one of the coolest cities ever! We explored the downtown Saturday flea market and while we admired all the purses and jewelry- what did we buy? Brownies, cookies, and fresh homemade loafs of bread :) I LOVE my new friends :)

We haven't gotten callings at church yet. Since Adam and I have no piano playing abilities we weren't directly needed :) However the second councilor asked Adam today if he was an eagle scout so I have a feeling a calling in scouts or young men's is on its way :) We actually both just want to teach... I wouldn't even mind primary at this point because some of the women i want to get to know are in primary.

Logan is now 5 months. And with the comes the end of my "whatever" days. There is no gray area with him anymore- he is either the highest of all joys or a complete terror. Either way he's still pretty darling and we love him :)

That's all the really big stuff. In small news....
1. Our library mails its patrons free kids books each month. AWESOME.
2. I love book club. It gives me something to study while Adam studies
3. Looking forward to family history class at the start of next month
4. Wicked is coming to Pittsburgh in October... how do I convince Adam 60 a ticket is worth it for nose bleed? (Blue man group is coming in May of next year and we are both determined to go to that at least...)
5. So many things to do! Park days, play dates, the library, running trails, baby showers- the women around here love to be out and about and it makes me so happy
6. We have discovered the most delicious Mexican restaurant in the entire world. I am going to say it-it may be better than Cafe Rio.
7. $1.50 for one load of laundry is ridiculous
8. I love being able to straighten my hair
9. It storms here. A whole freakin crap ton. And Logan does NOT like super loud thunder.
10. The traffic in Morgantown is the worst I have ever experienced in my life. I wont go out after 2 in the afternoon unless I have too.

Monday, August 22, 2011


I had a strangely profound experience tonight and I am wondering how to explain it... I guess we will just go the same route my train of thought took me.

I had a bad day today. It was just long- a lot of driving Adam back and forth, a tired crying baby for most of the day, a lot of traffic, spaghetti sauce EVERYWHERE, and a disappointing weigh in. That was what really got to me. Granted, looking back I hadn't worked as hard as I could have last week to loose weight, and I still lost something, just not as much as I was really hoping for. And I just didn't have the right perspective today to be happy that at least I lost something at all.

So- after finally getting Logan to sleep around 8:30 tonight I comforted myself with vanilla pudding and a book. I have been reading Ann Rice. When I had Logan and Adam gifted me the I-Pad, he also gifted me a bunch of i-books by authors I have never tried. Don't ask what drew me to Ann Rice's Vampire Chronicles but heavens- it really sucked me in. And in a totally different way than Twilight. Its not a love story in the least.

It is a dark book- but not in a gross bloody way. More in- a deep way. Reflections on life and self and change and redemption and evil and waste and time and etc. I am nearing the very end of the book and the main character who has been suffering with trying to continue to be human the whole novel, at the part I am at, the main guy had finally succumbed to the fact that though he walks and experiences, he does not change because he is a vampire.

And as I was brushing my teeth and thinking about this, it just made me so happy to be- well human. Not that I would be anything else... but I was just reflecting on how glad I am that I can not only experience but internalize and grow and change, that life continues to be so deep- so full of facets.

And that took me to ponder on change... whether we really are capable of change, and at what age it becomes impossible- what parts of ourselves are unchangeable and etc. And you know what? I don't think there is anything that is unchangeable. If we have the faith, and the confidence in ourselves, and the desire to be something different- we can do it.

My evidence that this is true? Because I am no longer the chunky girl.

Laugh all you want- but this is really how I have defined myself my whole life. When I was in England my TA had me write an essay titled what I am, and it has proven to be profound to me in many ways. But one of the things I wrote? I am not thin.

I was driving home from the library with a new friend the other day and we were talking about food or something like that- and I referred to myself as the perpetually chunky. And I saw her eyes roll over me, then roll back and she laughed and disagreed.

And it stopped me. These people here? They have no idea that once, simply for the love of cookies, I let myself reach 190 pounds. They have no idea how many times in the past I have dieted and worked to be thinner. They don't know how hard I have worked to love exercise, but see that now as just a part of me. They think that I have always eaten a lot of fruit and loved squash.

I opened a photo album on my computer and started to look back on pictures from when I was 190. I see my smile and my eyes and my hair- this person that is definitely me- and yet at the same time I couldn't see myself. After struggling for 11 years on something, even accepting it... I then changed.

I am not chunky. I am thin. I have 10-20 pounds to where I get to where I want to be- but I am also in a great place. I am doing what I need to, to get where I need to be. Heck- when I was disappointed tonight I didn't sink into a bowl of ice cream and Snickerdoodles. Both of which are currently in my house! I had a cup- not a whole box but just a cup- of fat free pudding made with Skim milk.


You think I would have figured this out when I was at my goal weight- when I was reveling in being truly thin for the first time. Maybe it had to be fitting back into my skinny pants to make me realize that those jeans weren't just a one time fling- they are a part of me.

And maybe it isn't the numbers on the scale that really tell me that I am no longer the chunky girl. But it is the fact that I am drinking skim milk. It is the fact that I spend half my grocery budget in the produce department. It is the fact that I pay attention to my fiber intake. I have lost weight in the past without "changing". But I have made the lifestyle change- which is how I can know that I am not the chunky girl anymore.

And so what if the thin girl only lost a pound this past week. In the long scheme of things it doesn't matter so much because- well- a thin girl can handle a lesser weight loss. Because she is already thin.

(Sometimes when I ramble on like this is makes so much sense to me, and is so meaningful to me, but I wonder if it makes sense to anyone else? Let me know if I need to stop writing blogs at 11:00pm at night about the things I ruminate on while I brush my teeth :)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Why do we even buy toys?

My mom always used to say that the reason she had kids was to make them do the chores she didnt want to do (like taking out the trash) and so she could play with their toys. :)

Ill admit- I was and have been SUPER excited about all the toys in my future. But what a waste of money when Logan would rather play with everything that's NOT a toy :)

Thursday, August 18, 2011

One Month Down

I really think I forgot HOW MUCH can go on in a month when you are in school. WOW. So much has happened since we have been here! I will try to give you the quick low-down.

1. Adam started school. He LOVES it. He also professes that if you want to go to med school- major in neuro. He is having such an easier time than the majority of the students because so much of what they are now learning is just review for him from neuro class. (And the classes hes taking right now are Bio- Chem and Human Function. What till he actually TAKES Neuro next semester.)

1a. Medical school is very "ceremonial". They have a ceremony every year to emphasize the importance of what the students are learning. Adam had his last Friday. It was actually fun- short and sweet and they had an AMAZING buffet afterwards. I got to meet Adams friends, make friends with their girls, and eat :) Plus in my book. The video below is just of Adam walking across the stage, getting his stethoscope, signing his name to his "oath of integrity". Pretty cool.

2. Adam joined the army! We have been back and forth for two years or so on whether we were going to do this, and after Adams recruiter called when we moved to WV we both just felt like it was the right move. Adam got sworn in on Monday- he is now Lieutenant Adam Moeck :) (I Love it.) Its nice to know that this move feels SUPER right to the both of us, AND that it will keep us out of debt. And get us out of our current debt.

3. Our car broke down :( Its been hard going a week without it- Adam is tired of walking to school and I am nearing the end of groceries. BUT- on the good side it is in the shop as we speak, we should know what is wrong with it by this evening, and hopefully when the military money starts coming in we will buy a new car. One with four doors, a working trunk, and where all the windows can roll down :) Still- our acura has served us WELL over its call of duty- it has been the best car. (Thank you for it Ryan!)

4. The house is set up. I am still slacking on getting pictures up, and we want to invest in a kitchen table now that we actually feel very social (rare for us) but its nice to feel comfy cozy.

5. LOTS OF FRIENDS! Adam has gotten buddy with loads of guys because... well, they are all like him. Slightly introverted, really nerdy, put studying first, ready to settle down aka no more parties, and just generally interesting people. I am grateful that the ward is full of young couples, and that Adams buddies all seem to have girlfriends, fiances, or wives. Much more fun for me.

And on my side of things, there is a book club (we are reading my antonia for September- I LOVE that book) an painting class, family history classes, a farm near by to get fresh fruits at SUPER cheap... lots of things for me to do and people to be with when I want it.

6. We like West Virginia. Lots of rain storms. But it reminds us a lot of Provo. (Which pits WV itself into perspective when you realize Morgantown is about the size of Provo... and its the largest city in the state.) We have to get used to traffic again but that comes with school town territory. We will see if we still love it in the winter when we get snow.

7. Logan is getting HUGE. Its like he has put on 3 inches in two weeks! He is laughing so much more, eating more solids, and becoming LOUD. The kid may still LOOK like Adam but I think he has more my personality. Which means we are really in for it. :)
So we are happy, healthy, a little car-less but doing well!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

ZumbaSistas- Mercy

Don't you love that I have had enough Zumba videos and other workout stuff to share to take us all the way into august? haha! To be honest I thought I would run out of stuff by now, but I think the more I blog about it the more I find and the more excited I get. I have stuff to take us to the end of the year I am pretty sure!

Nothing special about this video- its another from the Zumba Sisters who I talked about really loving before. And its a good video. So enjoy!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Some days really are cliche... like Mondays

With all the best intentions actually planned for the start of this week, this is what ACTUALLY happened with me today.

6:00am- Adam woke up. SO I woke-up. I laid in bed until 7:30 since Adam was going to be home by lunch.

7:30am- wake up to my crying child. He was still cute. Fed him.

8:30am- my breast pad accidentally falls in the toilet which I don't notice and I flush. OVERFLOWING TOILET.

9:00- instead of working out I am drying a sopping wet bathroom floor, and ignoring my child who is screaming for attention. As he likes in the morning.


9:30- Logan goes down for a nap. I'm crossing my fingers that he sleeps two hours so I can finish the laundry and work-out before he needs me again.

10:00am- I realize I don't have enough money to dry three loads of laundry. So I shove everything in one dryer- and say a prayer.

10:30- Logan wakes up screaming in the middle of my workout. So I got in a half hour of exercise. AND, after I feed him I discover that one dryer WONT dry all of my laundry.

11:00-1:00pm- I space laundry over every available surface in the house trying to dry the rest of our clothes while I talk to my mother and my sisters and Adams buddy Miller who called.

1:00- I put Logan, who is still upset over the lack of attention, down for a nap.

Also the power goes out. Until 3:30pm.

1:30- I make peanut butter and jelly. Because I cant open the fridge via the power being out. Then I fall asleep.

Oh, I fall asleep until 2 where my child refuses to nap. Again.

2:00- feed Logan. Then the electric guy comes in for a half hour to check our breakers before he turns the power back on. In the middle of Logan's lunch. Meaning I have to wait an half hour to breast feed Logan. I try to get him dressed. And he screams.

3:30- Logan is fully fed, and we are out the door. The power is also back on. I have to walk to the store because we are out of milk and our car is broken.

4:30- get back home from the store. Adam met me half way there on his walk home and helped me carry the two gallons of milk back to the house. Then, all in one moment I need to calm a scared child (he doesn't like the busy street by our house) feed a man who hasn't eaten since 7am and put away groceries.

Now at 5:30, Logan is refusing to sleep. Again. He's in his swing VERY mad at me and I am ignoring him as Adam naps on the couch after a long day at school. And I am taking a moment for me to blog and ignore him.

And to say that even though it is cliche- Mondays will be Mondays despite all the planning and good intentions you may have.

Now, here is a video of my son to prove even when he is crying that he is still darling :)

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Qualitty of my Productivity

Being a mom has made me totally reevaluate the idea of productivity. I have always loved the quote from the movie Sabrina, where Sabrina tells Harrison Ford that he would hate France because he is a work-aholic. She says to him, "(the French) work as hard as anyone else. But they know when to stop." I thought this was so true when I was in England as well. They work their butts off (the ones I saw) but then 5 or 6 comes around- and they are done. It's now time to play.

My mom taught me the value of balancing work and play. When I picture my mom, even now, I see her with her head phones on, a rag in one hand, and a bottle of windex or container of pledge in the other hand. All day my mom makes lunches, does laundry, drives kids to school, home from school, to work, to activities. She helps with homework, does her church callings, bills, cleaning, cooking- my mom is a work machine.

When I got older I remember being at home with her a few times- just us. And in the morning, after all the kids have been seen on the bus or dropped off at school, my mom sits down, and eats cereal. And reads. Or plays solitaire. Then she takes her sweet time showering, reading, getting ready, reading... sometimes even going back to bed for an hour.

AKA- my mom works her butt off, but enjoys her relaxation time as well.

I was thinking about this today when I was in the shower, and realized how I hadn't even gotten in the shower until 2 in the afternoon. I was realizing how much of the day was gone and thinking- wow, what have I done? Worked out, eaten, took Adam to school, and got the laundry in. (Not even folded yet- its still in the dryer.) And that's it. In the past? By two in the afternoon? I would have had twice that much done. I kind of felt guilty for not being more productive with my time.

That's when I thought- as a mom yes now I am twice as busy as before because I have a baby. But I am not working anymore so I have twice as much time as well. It should balance itself, and I think like any other woman, its kind of frustrating to realize that it doesn't.

And that's because I shouldn't be measuring my day by what I get done, but by what I do. What have I done today? Took care of myself (working out, enjoying leisurely time to eat, shaved in the shower...) I took care of Adam (drove him to school, made him lunch, texted him, FaceTimed with him while he had a break) and took care of Logan. (Fed him, and spent LOADS of time playing with him.)

It reminds me of after my freshman year of college when I brought my grades home. They weren't bad- a B average, but that's underpar for me. I asked my mom if she was disappointed. She told me to think of everything else I did that year that had nothing to do with school. The testimony I built, the memories I made, how I fell in love, how I met some of the best friends of my life... and she asked to me honestly ask myself, were all those other things WORTH the knock down in my grades.

Yes. Yes, it is TOTALLY worth it to leave my sink full of dishes to soak up my sons smiles, to dance for an hour and feel good about myself, to talk to my husband and make his afternoon happier.

I think that's maybe something people in Europe know that we as Americans have had a harder time figuring out. That it is not time and productivity itself that matter, but the quality of the time we do use. If your going to waste your day working, make sure you LIKE your job (or have an equally passionate purpose for working it if you don't like the office itself.) If your going to spend time relaxing by watching TV- make sure the show is worth it, and the person you watch it with someone you like.

I know your all laughing at me now thinking- um, Sarah? Your husband is going to be working 48 hour shifts and your telling US to take time to relax? The thing is, Adam is a star at making sure the quality of his time is top notch. By nature and nurture Adam is a bit of a work-aholic. But when Adam is in class or at work or studying- good LUCK getting his attention away. He is so focused!

But when Adam comes home, somehow he manages to completely fulfill all of mine and Logan's needs in... what? 2 hours? Maybe 3? I never NEVER worry about any of us feeling neglected when Adam is a doctor because he is so good at being home and being with us when he is at home.

So if you don't mind, I am not going to put of vacuuming my living room floor to actually DO my hair. And then maybe if my son isn't being too entertaining, I will make dinner instead of eating leftovers.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

A Sunbeam

This is Logan's favorite fun time song in the world. I can't get enough of the baby giggle!

Sunday, August 7, 2011


I don't know why I didn't get this posted earlier...

Adam always says, "Fireflys are the best part of the summer." And they are for sure my favorite part of the south- Tennessee wouldn't be wonderful without them. I love them. And here is a video of Logan getting to check them out for the first time!

Friday, August 5, 2011

Logan at 4 Months (and Pictures :)

I realized this morning that with all the moving I never really wrote about Logan at four months! And now that he is SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT (best part about this last growth spurt by the way) I find that when I wake up around 7:30-8:00, I have a half hour or so on my hands so I am going to blog about it now.

Oh, and all the pictures are from the week or so before we moved, and the week we have been here now. There aren't any pictures of our apartment up yet, but I hope to get pictures on the wall here soon, and when I do that means I can put pictures on my blog wall :)

AT his four month appt Logan was a little over 14lbs, and 25 inches. 40th percentile for everything. :) SO we have a slightly littler than average little man. Fine by me! He can stay as little as he wants for as long as he wants! :)

Like I said before, after a few horrendous nights here right after the move (I think Logan was nervous about a new place, sounds, smells- one night I ended up just sleeping on the couch with him because he was up every two hours!) Logan now will go to bed around 8:30- 9:00, and will usually stay there until 7:00-8:00. AWESOME. Most AWESOME thing ever. AND he wakes up happy and talking! Also awesome. Thank you to the advice to make a bed time routine! It helps. We take a bath, change into pajamas (nothing cuter than feetie pajamas than a baby who can barely fit in them), read two stories, then sing songs until his eyes look droppy. Then he eats himself to sleep. Works like a charm.

Logan is well into solid foods. He LOVES squash and bananas. He like Sweet Potatoes and Peas and carrots. He will not tolerate green beans or prunes. (I sneak it by mixing it with carrots or cereal bwahahaha!) and he will sometimes eat peaches (he likes those cold) but they seem a little too sweet at the moment. He always screws up his face when he eats them. So funny.

He rolls over! Yay! He seemed so uninterested in that I was worried it would never happen ;) He hasn't quite made it from back to front yet- he gets caught on his little shoulder. But he LOVES to stand and to jump (Jumping I think may be the all time favorite- that and kicking. Maybe he will be my kickboxing man after all :) He loves crinkly toys or anything soft- like a stuffed animal he can hold.

No teeth yet- though the doctors say by the amount of slobber and how he chews on anything brought to his face that it should be soon. (I will believe it when I see it.) Logan DOES NOT like baby chew toys. He's not a plastic man. He would rather chew on a stuffed animal or a wash cloth. Which our doctor here in WV says is super normal. And better cuz a wash rag will clean his little gums.

Logan is SO impatient! When he wants something- he wants it then. When he is bored- you better change his position or get him a new toy then. He doesn't "get sleepy". He goes from happy playing to yelling "Put me to bed!" When he's hungry he cant even stand the two seconds it takes for me to open the container, or get a new spoonful of food.

Logan LOVES people, and talking. (That's from me :) If were out with people, if we "ignore" him for too long he will protest. LOUDLY. He will sit in his carseat just fine when we are in a car but once we are out- he wants to be out. He wants to see where we are, and look at the people, and see Adam and I and talk to us. It will be so much nicer when he gets a little bit better at sitting and can sit in a highchair in a restaurant.

He's pretty good at sitting- he just has a tendency to tip to one side every once and a while. He really likes to rock himself when he is sitting which I think throws him off balance a little. Or he will fold over like a frog so he can get to his toes.

Logan LOVES his toes. Playing with them, grabbing them, eating them, using them to grab things... he also likes hair. Which I don't like, but he is so darn cute I put up with it :) He likes to eat his fingers just as much. And if you let him grab your fingers he will eat those too. And if you bring him close to your face to rub noses or something, he will eat your nose or your cheek, or whatever his mouth is closest too :)

He is one smiling, talking, jumping, rocking, squealing and screaming delight. I can't believe how every morning when I get him up he looks bigger. He doesn't look like a newborn baby either- his face it getting that rounder more grown-up look. Y'all will think I am crazy, and we have nothing in the works, but we just love this kid so much, and have SO much fun with him, that we are DEFF excited to have two :)

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Imma Be GRDacneFitness

Two favorites this time- GRDanceFitness (always a good stable to go to when looking for a great Zumba Video) and another Black Eyed Peas song.

I love Imma Bee because it sounds like they are saying, "Imma Be a Bumble bee" :) That is NOT what they are saying but it IS fun. ANd... I will admit... I put music on when Logan is nursing or having "wake" time to make sure he actually stays awake, and I love having this song. I sing it to him and pretend to BE a Bee, and tickle his tummy. We LOVE it.

(Though I do feel a little like Ross and Rachel on Friends singing Baby Got Back to their newborn girl to get her to smile. But I would have done the same as them.)

Here in West Viriginia!

Yes we made it- about a week ago in fact :) We have just been so busy collecting furniture, picking up books, getting on government aid, meeting neighbors and church people, finding a bank, unpacking, setting up house, hooking up the internet... I just haven't hopped on here to blog :)
(Enjoy the random photos of Logan- it wouldn't be our blog without them. They were taken before we left- we had some fun dinner time with one of Adams best buds Brandon Walker before we left and documented it. :)The drive was fine- 7 and a half hours from Tennessee to here. Logan was a charm the whole way. We have our apartment mostly set up... we need another bookcase, end table and some sort of table or card table for the kitchen. And I need to get pictures on the walls but at least all the boxes have been unpacked right? There may be a pile or two of movies and books on my living room floor but really- that is besides the point :)I like West Virginia. I have only been here a week and a day so my opinions of the place might change. The area itself, or maybe it is the whole state, reminds me of an experience Adam and I had our second day here. We were desperate for a couch. We had gone to DI, Wal Mart, looked all over Craigs List, and just couldn't find anything. So we decided to google map some discount fruniture stores. One was right down the street so we decide to pop by.
When Adam pulls the car up front both of our heart sink. The place was AWFUL looking. It took us a full minute just to decide where the front door was, and we could only figure that out because there was a paper sign on it, and it was cracked open. It was in a hardly paved lot under some really nasty looking apartments. Dirty, gross, glass all over- when you pulled up this is the type of place we expect to see cockroaches skittering around. But we shrug- were here- so we brave the front door.
Inside? Some of the most beautiful furniture I have ever seen in my life. Linoleum floors, tan walls- all clean, and couches we dream of owning some day when Adam is making bank. Carved headboards, leather sofas, tapestry draped sofas, heavy wooden tables... we took fifteen minutes to just walk around and admire everything in there even though we KNEW we would never be able to afford even a bar stool. (Which were black, leather, art deco, amazing and 99 each.)Do you get the allegory? You drive into Morgantown and see loads of really run down houses. Tiny one way roads. Men in trucks that I would swear are so rundown they don't even have floor boards- without shirts on. (You see that a lot here- it really is a thing.) Everyone smoking. Awful traffic.
And yet- our apartment though outdated is the cleanest place that we have rented yet. (And our stove the best working! Our internet the fastest!) Our neighbors are SO sweet- our apartment manager so helpful. The people at church- SO SMART. Everyone here seems brilliant to me. I have gotten used to Tennessee where as a college graduate I was sort of the top of the food chain. Here that makes me the bottom. Everyone has or is working towards some type of graduate degree. Even the older women who you would expect to not have cared about that type of thing have some years in graduate school under their belts. Its intimidating to me but also sort of exciting- I have so much I can learn!
Everyone who works in the government offices seems to be a registered nurse- and they all care SO MUCH about their community! I mean- one woman in the WIC office was oozing passion when she talk about a breastfeeding walk they were hosting. The people I saw in the govermentm offices instead of being the- well, I'll say it- trash- you expect, were well groomed, their kids were clean and polite...Basically what I would say about West Virginia and Morgantown is that it is just not what you expect. An intensely medical community- that has really only now started pushing breastfeeding as good and healthy. (In Tennessee I would have been almost shunned for bottle feeding without a medical reason for doing so haha!) When you drive to buildings you cant' believe you are going to step inside, and yet find yourself STAYING for a while. To be honest? I kind of like that the town has shaken me from me pre-conceptions :) I am so much more willing to discover now. We may find things we hate, and we may find a lot more things we love. But after a week here I think I can safely say that we expect to quite enjoy our stay.