Monday, September 20, 2010

Obsession

You know how sometimes when you get together with your girlfriends and sit around watching girlie movies you talk about "who you wish you were" or "who you wish you looked like"?

Lets face it. I would not mind Julia Roberts smile. Or Nicole Kidmans born grace. I would love, when I am running, Audrey Hepburns body, or when I am dancing Marilyn Monroe's.

But really, every other second of every other day, I want to be Barbara Streisand.

I know I mention her all the time but truly- I think she is the MOST beautiful woman in the world. Long neck, long eyes, thick hair and yes- a big nose but a more beautiful nose I don't know if there is. (Unless its Adams.) Even in the 80's with her huge curly red hair she is even gorgeous.

Besides the fact that she's brilliant, she's so darn funny- in real life besides on film. (I know because I have listened to some of her award shows), and she is one of the only modern stars
that can sing as well as she can act and visa versa. I am watching a movie called Yentl right now, that you can't even imagine the depth of until you know that the woman really IS Jewish. (When she made her christmas album she said if her grandmother could hear her she would be turning over in her grave.)

And every time the woman opens her mouth to sing I get chills all up and down my arms. Goosebumps. Yes, it is a crush.

I have few dreams in my life but the biggest ones? Get married. (check.) Be a mom. (check in 180 and some odd days.) Publish a book. (At least I've written a few.) Meet Barbara Streisand. It sounds ridiculous but I cant write a book without some character, minor or major, loving her music. I have this ridiculous mental image that someday she is going to read one of my books and she will laugh at how much I love her and call my agent and ask if we can do lunch. I told you it was ridiculous.

Adam and I decided that as soon as our baby can hear in the womb, even though we know it can't comprehend words and sounds, it can recognize them. So if its a boy it will be life by Linkin Park. So he loves it when he's born. And if its a girl, life by Barbara Streisand so I have someone to belt out with when I am in the car and cleaning.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

The Awesomeness of Pregnancy Clothes

Right. So I know pregnancy is synonymous with gaining weight. Still- that doesn't mean that when you stand on the scale and see those first five pounds (or more in my case) pack on, when you have to go UP a bra size after spending SOO much time getting it down, when you cant suck in that gut- doesn't mean it doesn't make you a LITTLE sad.

I know- not being able to suck in the gut is a GOOD thing. That is the bump. However- at this stage, when you put on pants and cant button them- you don't LOOK pregnant. You just look fat. And after spending a YEAR to get rid of that look, and spending months enthralled in the fact that you are nice and fit- it hits the ego a little.

I know- I lost weight and got fit so I COULD have kids. I know breast feeding looses as much calories as my 3 mile run. I know that given 6 months I will have my skinny jeans back ALONG with a darling little me and Adam. (Poor child has NO chance of NOT being a major nerd.) But.... all that said. Doesn't mean I like it.

So, with my birthday money (Thank you family!) I went out yesterday with the idea of updating my wardrobe. I went everywhere I could think before I hit the mall thinking- hey a little store will be cheaper than the mall right?

SO WRONG. Kohls wants 50 dollars for pregnancy pants. I don't even spend that on skinny fit Sarah pants. Def not going to use it on fat baby Sarah. And Targets DD bras are really like... a C. Suck. I went to the mall, thinking dowerly, that I was going to have to start special ordering clothes.

Enter Victoria Secrets and Motherhood Maternity- my mall stores that will NEVER let me down. Vickys has a new cotton bra- IN MY SIZE- that is HALF PRICE. $24. Target price. For the the perfect fitting, comfort, looking bra. I almost cried when I put it on. No joke.

I tried on almost EVERY style of jean at Motherhood. The best part was- EVERY size was way too big except for the small. (YAY!!) And even the smalls are all made of stretch fabric so even if my butt DOES widen a little, even if my thighs DO expand with water these pants will STILL fit. At least for a few months. Even better. Pants were $24 dollars. I LOVE MOTHERHOOD.

(PS- PLEASE do not "ensure me" that my butt and thighs are going to get bigger. That will just make me more sad before I need to be. Don't you guys HATE the negative pregnancy advice people give you?- not meaning you are going to give me that advice- meaning in general when YOU got that advice didn't it make your blood boil?- "Oh just wait..." they say. I want to return with.... "Oh just shut-up..." PPS- I am a horrifically mean pregnant lady. No joke.)

Even better about trying on Motherhood Maternity jeans- people have told me how awful the pregnancy pant is- the one with the "hidden belly" AKA the big flap of fabric that should cover the huge belly and hold the pants up. Whoever said these pants are awful- LIED. LIED big time. They are AWESOME!!

One, the get rid of any line underwear/ garments might cause so I can even go back to wearing those TIGHT shirts I love because there is just a cute- bump. Not rolls, not a muffin top. Besides that- they are SO comfortable!! I can sit, lay, move, do knee ups in them, without any restraint in any which way. These pants move with me, form with me.

EVEN BETTER than that? Adam thought they were normal pants. I twirled for him in them this morning and he had this look like- "OMG. Did you really buy normal pants when you will grown out of them in 2 months?" So when I showed him the belly panel he was impressed. Because these pants are CUTE.

So those of you who only have kids to look forward too- ignore everyone. Pregnancy clothes are awesome and comfy and I feel like I could sleep in my jeans. (Not that I never slept in normal jeans before... used to do that a lot.) I look forward to putting on my pregnancy clothes. Because I feel CUTE. Cute belly pregnant cute. And what MORE does a pregnant woman deserve than to feel cute? Unless its extra sleep and free stuff...

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Birthday

Well, on a facebook request from two very favorite friends I am trying to blog more. Although at 8:49 on a Wednesday morning I don't feel I have TOO much to say so I am just going to talk about my birthday yesterday. Which may make me seem a little full of myself but hey- its MY blog so I don't care :)

My best friend flew in from Oregon on Friday for the WHOLE week so we could experience being prego in the same vicinity :) And so we could celebrate my birthday together for the first time since I was 17. 7 years. My heavens I feel old. We had all sorts of amazing plans but both of us suddenly having no jobs and needing frequent pregnancy naps we got.... none of them done :)

Friday- picked up Becky, had mexican food, talked until midnight
Saturday- slept in, went shopping all morning due to the rain. Went to Panera for lunch. Napped. Talked, watched TV.
Sunday- church (I taught) made homemade pizza. Napped. Talked. Watched TV. Did Family Home Evening.
Monday- got to see AND hear my baby. Took Adam to work and checked out the new house he is cleaning up. Went to the mall for makeup and Auntie Annes Pretzels. Home for lunch. Napped. Made fajitas. Talked. Becky gave me Mama Mia for my b-day so we watched it downstairs in the theatre room and sang our hearts out.
Tuesday- spent inordinate amounts of time trying to look good. (It was my b-day!) Made pancakes. Went to the mall for pedicures. Went and saw Eat, Pray, Love (VERY good) and had a bag and a half of movie popcorn for lunch. Went home, talked, went to Olive Garden, watched Big Bang, had cake, opened presents, talked, went to bed.
Today- Adam went to work early. I got dressed. I am sitting in bed listening to the new Linkin Park Cd (AMAZING!! My b-day gift from Adam) and blogging. I think Becky is in the shower... she has to go home today :( I am sad, but I know she misses her hubby so I am happy she gets to go home to him because I would be sad if I was away from Adam for this long. Pathetic but oh so true.

And that is about it.... I got some great gifts... not that that is the best part of a birthday- talking to my siblings and lots of friends and eating Olive Garden probably is but presents ARE nice. I just like ripping wrapping paper :) A new CD, a musical, a new wallet, candy, lotions, a purse, some prego shirts.... very nice. Oh, and a VERY nice scarf I am assuming comes from one of my sisters... its GORGEOUS. (And I am SURE I spelled the wrong but I don't care. Blame it on pregnancy stupidity which is what I blame.... everything on :)

yeah for families, best friends, and birthdays! And Linkin Park. And ultrasounds. And Olive Garden. And Koreans for being AMAZING at doing nails. I will never go to an American salon again. Sorry my very favorite country.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Truths

Every year on my birthday I add to a list I started making when I was in high school about the truths that I have learned every year of my life. I think I posted this last year, but there was an addition to the list today which makes it necessary to post again :)

What I’ve Learned

24 Truths for Living Life

1. When you’re learning how to walk, the standing back up part is important.

2. The most important word is not I or mine.

3. Potty training is hard

4. Always, always ask why

5. Don’t pick California poppies in California

6. Daisies are always free

7. When faced with the choice of getting to keep a toy that you want, and getting to say good bye to a friend you may never see again, always give up the Barbie for the chance to say good-bye.

8. Have faith.

9. Always have an imagination and always use it.

10. Barney is not as cool as you once thought.

11. Write-always write.

12. Work hard for yourself- not for your teachers or for your parents- but just for you.

13. Love your family. Someday they will be all that you have left.

14. Learn who you are, love who you are, be who you are.

15. Fall in love.

16. Dance the way you do when no one is watching.

17. People don’t die. They take a long vacation and go visit God.

18. You don’t know everything. In fact, you don’t know much at all. What you do know though, is that the only way to live is with God and His son, because it is then that you find joy.

19. Someday someone will make you realize that you can hold the world. And even if he ends up hurting you, you’ll know that every tear will be worth it because your love was real. Because it was when you loved him that you found yourself closest to God.

20. Learn how to live by yourself and love being alone. It will be very lonesome for quite some time but when it gets really bad, the Lord will send you a friend who will make the loneliness more tolerable.

21. Sometimes you loose sight of who you are. When this happens the best remedy is to just take off you clothes and jump into the water.

22. Love is not hard. Situations may be hard. Creating romance may be hard. But love itself, is very easy.

23. Do not let anyone or anything tell you to hurry. This is YOUR time. You need to live life, not be life.

24. Patience is a virtue that if you don't garner naturally, it will be forced upon you.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Most Exciting News Ever


I guess from a blog post title like that you can only EXPECT what is coming next but I have been WAITING to spill the beans and no one is going to take my fun from me no matter how obvious it might be :)

I am PREGNANT!!!

Don't be sad if you are finding out just by this. I kind of meant this the way to announce it to everyone, that way I didn't have to call or text a million people :)

12 weeks and 3 days along, I am due March 25th, 1 day and three weeks after my very best friend is also due :) Adam and I were just waiting for a great ultrasound, to make sure everything is happy and very healthy before we told the world and we got just that today :)

For those of you that can't tell, the head is to the left, at profile view, baby Moeck's nose already looking cute and perfect :) He/she was kicking their legs already, and had a great fast heart beat. Adam's is also really fast so the both of us our hopping the baby gets HIS metabolism :) We won't find out the sex until the beginning of November, and though we are both HOPING for a boy, we will be incredibly happy with either.

Everything has been going great- I am feeling good. I had a little bit of food sensitivity and discovered my vitamins are the culprit and have been feeling fine since I have gotten on some different ones. My doctors are great, the hospital is ten minutes from my house, beautiful, green, and private- all I could want :) Doctor says I am looking good- everything seems to be going right as rain. My energy level is picking up so that's another plus.

Adam has been really- the man during all of this. He is my steady stable rock and I couldn't love him any more!! He handles my food cravings and swinging moods like a pro. Even explains science stuff to me that I don't get :) For those of you who aren't married or who haven't had kids- be excited. Men become the greatest things on earth. Adam has always been wonderful but he has just doubled over the few months.

Anyways- just wanted to announce our excitement for now- that way I can talk about the biggest thing going on in our lives :) I'll post more later.